O_O Your grandpa... Wow. That's almost amazing. I keep telling my gramma to enjoy herself, but it's hard for her to do due to a lack of transportation or reliable income that isn't invaded by my aunt and mother. >.> While I was up there the past few days (that's why I've been neglecting you. =\ I sorry <33), she would not shut up about her funeral preparations and how she's got them all paid off and crap. V.V It made me so sad. I told her she's never allowed to die. XD

It's brown. XD I was trying to go back to my natural color, but I'm going to wait a while before putting the blonde and red that used to be in my hair before I started dying it. So, at the moment, it's just a flat brownish color. Some of the blonde and orange from my last dye job is still showing through, tho'. XD It's nice, 'cuz it's like highlighting only without the work to get it. But I'll try to remember to take a picture tonight with the spiky-ring in my lip. <33
^.^; At least people are starting to traffic your page more, tho', right?? That's always a good thing.

OMG. I just ate like... a week's worth of chili. X____X I think I'm going to explode.

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

My grandma doesn't need someone to take care of her, so much as my grandpa does. He wants to kill himself, because he's just waiting to die, and he feels like he's a burden to my grandma. And she kind of acts like he is. I feel bad for both of them, they're both so miserable right now, and I wish they could just enjoy the rest of their lives... My grandpa said he wants to move to Oregon because assisted suicide is legal. I was like, that's great, thanks for telling me... V_V;

What color did you dye your hair this time? I still haven't dyed mine. It's just too much work. You'll have to send me another pic of you, with your new hair and new lip thingie.
Dude, things have been kind of weird on here for me lately... I keep getting people randomly watching me and stuff. And favoriting stuff. I'm just not used to that happening when I don't post anything for a while. And then I think one of my things has one less favorite than it used to. Or maybe I'm just going nuts. Everything feels really surreal to me right now, but I think it's just 'cause I'm tired. I woke up all dizzy this morning.

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I'm glad my gramma doesn't need anyone to take care of her... V_V; She'd kill herself before it came to that, anyway, which I hope it doesn't. =\ Jack's grandparents need help all the time, tho'. It's sad... They're not doing so well right now, either. =\\ They're pretty cool people, so it's going to be sad when they go. But like... his gramma... Everytime I see her it's like she's meeting me for the first time, and about the time I'm leaving she realizes she's met me before. v.v

I love onion. XD!
Guh. I dyed my hair again. >D I'm surprised I haven't fried it yet. =O

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

My younger cousin moved to South Africa about a year ago, with her boyfriend. So I guess she beat me. Now they're getting married. I hope she stays there. She's the one I don't like very well. And my mom recently moved to Arizona. So my family is starting to get out of that town. But I feel bad for my grandparents because they need someone to take care of them, and even though my aunt and uncle live right across the street, they can't seem to do it for some reason.

Yeah, numbers are evil. XD Half an onion just by itself?? I like onions, but not just by themselves...

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Yeah... I'm the first of my family since my Gramma to move this far away from home. X_X Well, my uncle moved to Kentucky at one point, but that doesn't count. He used to visit family there all the time. XD My cousin moved about fifteen minutes from our hometown... I still beat her tho'. I live about two hours from there. >D

Yeah, I got a new ring for it, too, but it's too big. =\ For some reason, my brain didn't associate 7/16 and 3/8 as the same thing. X_x Fuck numbers and their being stupid and not sticking in my head. V-V;
Buh, I just ate half an onion for dinner. XD!

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

It's probably good that you moved though. It's good to move away from your hometown at least for a little while. Experience the world and all. Most of my family has lived in the same town for like three generations. It's ridiculous. I always knew I was gonna move away. And I'm so glad to be away from them. That'd be good for you if you could get a night job.

So your lip piercing hasn't gotten all icky and stuff? That's good. Spikes are good. ^_^

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Jack asked me to, and I wanted to try living away from Cd'A for a while, anyway, 'cuz I wanted to get away from my family. So I thought it would make for an easy transition if I moved here. Plus, I thought there would be more to do here than there is, what with it being a college town and all. But seriously. Everything closes so early around here... Normally, by the time I'm off work, stores are closing, so I don't get to do anything but hang at home. V_V; I dunno. Moving here seemed like a better idea when I agreed to it. XD! Although next year should be better seeing as Tyler will be here. <3 I'm really excited for that.
Plus, I intend to get a different job for next year so I can work at night or something. X_x My body keeps trying to give out on me with the schedule I've got right now.

Well, I'm going to practice with the stippling thing tonight... I have to finish this stupid thing by the end of the month, so yeah. V-V; Stupid graduation present stuffz.
I changed my lip ring today. XD Mostly 'cuz I had to, tho'. >.o The ball of my other one kept falling out. My poor lip ring! It got all bent out of shape and crap. T.T I was saddened. But, now I have spikes. >D

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Sorry, but I don't remember if you told my why you moved away from there in the first place... If that's where all your friends are, shouldn't you just be living there?

Well, you should try the spray bottle thing someday if you get the chance. It's fun and it looks really cool. But for the stippling thing, I think a good thing to remember is it's all about layering, and don't be afraid to overlap different shades. And if it doesn't look finished enough when you're done, you could draw in a few scales randomly... Kinda like how I did with that last dragon. Anyhoo, hope it works out for ya. ^_^

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Ha ha. I have no idea what we're going to do with it anymore. XD! I still want to hit him with it, tho'. >D Just 'cuz he's a buttmunch like that and deserves it.
If I don't go up there I get really depressed, 'cuz I don't have any friends here except for Jack. =\ And as much as I love him, I'm too social for him to make up everything. But no one here seems to be interested in making friends with me. V_V At least no one that sticks around. I've made a lot of friends at work, but they're all just guests that leave within a couple of days. Then, the people that stay there while they're looking for an apartment to live in all turn out to be really creepy. X_x

Hmm. I think I'll have to do the last thing with the stippling. XD I'm cheap like that. Plus, I'm never off work when any stores I could get ink at are open. >.< I hate working during the day in this town. Everything closes by six, I swear. The only day it's okay is on Sunday, 'cuz there is seriously nothing open on Sundays. >.o But, thank you! I knew you could help me. ^____^ You're so great like that.

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Mmmm... Chocolate covered dildo.... XD Are you still gonna hit him in the face with it? That is what we were talking about right? I don't remember... Well why do you have to go up there all the time? Tell them you need a break. That'd be cool if you get a car. ^_^

Suggestions on texture? I'm all about texture. Probably the quickest and easiest method would be to get some various colored inks, and a squirt bottle, and cover the area you don't want to get sprayed, and then just spray it. Depending on what color you want the dragon to be, like say you want it green, then get green ink in different values, 'cause that way it'll kinda look like light and shadow. Also if you get some rubbing alcohol and spray that too, it'll add to the texture. But for god's sake open a window if you do that! XD You can also blow on the the tip of your markers real hard and it'll give it a similar look, but I wouldn't recommend that just because it takes a lot of blowing, and it's just not worth the resulting headache. Plus it doesn't look as good as the spray bottle. Or you could use sponges. But if you just want to use the tria markers, and not go out and get ink, you could use the very tip of the broad side of the marker to just stipple colors on it, and then if you go over it with a really light color, or like a really light gray, or a blending pen, it'll kinda dilute the stippling and look more natural... If you do that I'd recommend using a light color, like if the dragons green, use yellow, because the blending markers tend to take away the color and make everything look kind of bland. Um... That's all I can think of right now... XD

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I think we're going to cover the dildo in chocolate now...? Or bake it into a cake? X_x Something. The plan mutated over our time in Cd'A the past couple days.
Ugh, going up there is starting to just be stressful lately. V.V It's not even much fun. There's so much running around and planning around stuff that Jack's parents want us to do, around what we want to do, and what our friends' families are doing... @___@ We waste so much gas when we're up there, too. It's crazy. But I may be getting a car soon? I dunno. I did a little car shopping yesterday.. I think I'm going to get a Toyota Yaris. =O I'm excited. It looks like a bunny. <3

So, I'm coloring that dragon I drew... But I want it to look like it has some texture to the scales without me actually having to draw scales out. I'm using those Tria markers that Jack got me... Any suggestions?

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May as well make it amazingly strange...

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Why, in this empty room,
Is my body shaking?
Tell me...

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You're very welcome.

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Thank you for the watch! I really appreciate it

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Why, in this empty room,
Is my body shaking?
Tell me...

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Ha.
That's great. XD! Don't worry about it, and thanks again.

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

wth?... yes i did put you on a watch and after seeing your comment today i realized the watch wasn't on anymore. I added you again so if you get a second notice or something that's why. sorry about all this ^^

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I hate fleas. They make me angry.
Smack him with a dildo? That's funny... Seems like it would hurt a lot though... XD I'll look that up tomarrow. I'm so tired right now for some reason. Catherine called me and was talking a lot and I was like "whaaa..?" I was all confused.

At that point in my life I was still living under my mom's roof... well technically it was my grandma's, but neither of them lived there. I had the whole house to myself. It was nice. But yeah, I guess that whole rule thing makes sense, especially if it was the parent's car. I dunno, but that video was really funny, and sad... but mostly funny. "In the BUTT!" XD

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We had a problem with fleas for our doberman when we had her. @__@ I don't understand how she always managed to bring 'em into the house.... But she did. I hate fleas because of her. I've never had a pet other than her get fleas, tho'. It's weird. o.o

Jack and I want to get a big black dildo for our friend Brenton. XD And smack 'im with it. 'Cuz he's a bro and all. ^.^ You should look up the Bro Rape video on derrickscomedy.com. It's entertaining. It actually reminds me of a couple of friends that we have... They play GameCube, were LiveStrong bracelets, and say "chillin'" a lot. XD!

Some parents hold the rule that as long as you live under their roof, it doesn't really matter what age you are. Plus, her parents may have owned her car, and therefore technically had a right to take it away if they didn't approve of what she was doing. XD "But you could've been RAPED. In the BUTT."

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Aww, poor kitty. Hopefully that not what happened. My ferrets always try to eat bugs. It's funny to watch them, they're such evil little beasts. I wish Jerry and I had bombed this place before we moved in, we have trouble with fleas mostly. And I think they were here when we moved in because it wasn't really an issue when we lived in SF.

Yeah those really expensive sex dolls are crazy looking!!! XD One time in high school a few of my friends and I bought a blow up doll for Truckee (because he has relationship issues and we always make fun of him for it.), and he brought it to school. It was great. Good times were had by all.

Those videos are upsetting!! Especially that second one... O_o That was disturbing. I hate MySpace. The first one was kinda funny though. But it seems weird to me that she's 18 and she's still being grounded and having her car taken away?? I dunno, when I was 18 I was practically on my own. But then, my mom was never the strict type. I was never grounded.

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I kinda suck at baking, too, but I do it anyway. XD I'm just bad in the kitchen unless I already know exactly how to make whatever it is I'm making. Like when I make spaghetti or this rum-apple chicken meal I came up with. I can make those alright.

I could see canned food being the problem. I think she may have gotten bit by a hobo or something, tho'... The increasingly warming up weather has brought them out again, and she has this nasty habit of trying to catch them and play with them and eat them. V_V; I didn't even think about that until just now when a gigantic one crawled up my chair and scared the fuck outta me. T.T Now, I'm not afraid of spiders, but when they just pop up outta nowhere like that... guh, it freaks me out. Plus, that sucker was HUGE. Like... nickel sized. X_X But I hope she didn't get bit by one. Those things are ridiculously poisonous. >.> I still have a scar on my leg from where I got bit by one when I was in elementary school. It just completely rots the skin away and crap... So I'm all looking out for balding spots on my cat now......... V_V;;;;
I swear. When we move.. the first thing I'm doing is bug bombing the place. >____<

Sex dolls are so weird. XD I kinda want one just so I can get a good look at it. Especailly one of those thousand dollar ones in that documentary that I saw...
You should watch this. >D It's really funny. [link] Ha ha. MySpace addictions are hilarious. This one is funny, too, but it's way obnoxious. XDD [link] Yeah.. so when watching the second one, don't have the volume too loud.

I dunno.. Alice 19th is really good. I'm not too into the romance part of it (even that's a HUGE part of it), but I love the message it sends about how words hold power...

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Aww.. I want desserts... I can't bake though. V_V; I'm useless like that.

I have this theory that canned food makes cats insane. Seriously. They get really obsessed with it. Like our neighbor's cat, we watch her sometimes and whenever anyone goes in there she attacks them unless they give her canned food. She made my ankle bleed once... But she doesn't attack me anymore, 'cause once I wore boots when I went in there and when she tried to attack me she got all confused. XD Plus she just seems to like me now. But that's how my cat has been acting lately too, like really starved for attention. It's kinda weird.

lol A Faron sex doll.... That's wrong on so many levels. XD Actually that's part of why I didn't really want to get an adult one, they're a little bit... too well defined I guess, it kinda weirds me out. I might get one someday though... >D Is that why you don't like those dolls? My friend Truckee showed me this personalized sex doll website once, it was incredible. I was rather impressed. XD I wish I could remember the name of it.

I haven't read that one. That's kinda how I feel about Dragon Knights, but you know, it isn't really even about the story for me, I just really like the art. I haven't actually read a manga in a while, which is sad I guess. But you don't sound like a lunatic, I mean, I'm the one that was ranting on about art having a soul or whatever.

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Yeah, you seem a bit stressed. You should make some desserts. 'Cuz stressed spelled backwards is desserts. XD! I like making cakes or cookies when I'm stressed out. I dunno why, but for some reason it seems to make everything better.

I think it's either from going outside the other day, or the canned food I got her that same day. Or maybe even the catnip. XD Maybe she's just had too much excitement in the past few days? Oops. I dunno what's getting into her lately, but she's like, starved for attention or something. I can't seem to give her enough of it without her yowling for more. @__@ I've actually been trying to work on some sort of comic stuffz, but every time I pull out my sketchbook, she jumps onto it and starts wanting me to pet her. She does this without fail. X_x It's insane.

Dreams about the doll aren't weird. It just goes to show how excited you are! I hope they get it out soon, tho'. XD! This conversation kinda makes me think of this documentary Jack and I watched on personalized sex dolls... o.o Kinda, but not into great detail. XD Thank goodness.

I started off as left handed, but my grampa thought it was weird and so he always made me use my right hand. =\ If I didn't, he'd hit me and start ranting about how I would grow up as an outcast because of it. I know that's not true now, but from about 3yrs until about 14 or 15 when he died he'd just let loose on me whenever he saw me even pick anything up with my left hand. X_x So it's just a reflex to use my right hand now. There's still some things that I just cannot do with my right hand, but not very many anymore... But yeah, my gramps was nuts like that. @___@

Mmm. I can't stop reading Alice 19th. XD I've reread all seven books about four times in the past week. I think it has to be my favorite manga. I mean, I love Dragon Knights, and it's definitely up in the top three manga I'm never disappointed in, but Alice 19th is just so... Inspirational to me, I guess. X_x I don't even know how to describe how I feel after reading it. It's along the lines of comforted... or enlightened... or something great like that, something you just normally don't feel unless you've just had a near-death experience that you came out of completely unscathed.... @___@ I sound like a lunatic. XD

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Yeah I usually try to go to bed around two... or three. But I usually don't get to sleep til a few hours later.
I do? Hehe do I seem stressed? I'm trying to get over it... I dunno what's wrong with me.

Aww, why's she sick? Did she get into something? I think cats like to be tortured. I pull on Maha's tail all the time, and grab his fat belly which he hates. >D He whines a lot, but he always comes back for more.

Yeah I'm excited too... But I'm sad because far as I can understand it could take anywhere from two weeks to two months to be shipped out... And since I ordered it with the face painted it'll probably be more on the long end. I don't think I can wait that long!!!!! Woe is me. This probably sounds pretty dumb, but I keep having dreams about getting it... XD I'm such a freak.

So you used to use your left hand? But now you don't? O_o How does that work?? Both Catherine and Jerry are left handed, I'm the odd one.

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Psh, I do try to sleep earlier than that! >D I go to bed around two every night. So at least it's the same time, or roughly around there.
Artists. Bah. XD It's frustrating that everyone thinks all art has to look a certain way.
I hope you get your vacation. =\ You seem like you're needing it. V_V It's so sad. Everyone seems to be unhappy lately. It's not cool at all.

Poor Puppy is sick, so she was up ALL NIGHT last night. @__@ It was crazy. She let out the most amazing fart EVER tho'. XD Like... It was as if Jack came into my room, sat by my head, and let one go. Seriously. I don't know how she wasn't floating away with how much air must've been in her to make it so she could do that. Baha. I'm pulling on her tail right now. >D I don't understand how she loves me so much with how much I torture her. <3 I'm glad she does, tho'.

^_^ I'm so excited about your doll. You have no idea.
I miss using my left hand for everything. V_V; It feels so awkward using my right hand even though I've been using it for so many years... But now my left hand is like... retarded or something. Or it just hates me for abandoning it. Plus, my drawings are a lot more cheerful from my right hand... =_= I should start to use my left hand more often. =O

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Even in death, let this hand paint a picture so vivid, even He will wish to turn his back upon the light...

May as well make it amazingly strange...

Well you should trying getting to sleep sooner than that anyway. XP
I know, what the hell is up with artists??? Gawd they're like the most anal people ever. I hate it 'cause sometimes I catch myself acting like that and I'm all like "NOOOOOOO!!!!" I blame my mom though. I'm hoping when Catherine and Alex get here I'll feel better. We probably won't get to go to the cabin, 'cause it's too far away.... But we're probably gonna go to the coast which I'm excited about 'cause I haven't been to it up here. But I'm hoping it won't be too long after Catherine and Alex leave that Jerry will be able to take some more time off work so we can go on a vacation.

OMG I know what you mean about cats being annoying when you're trying to sleep. I woke up this morning with our dumb cat right up in my face meowing at me! I was so mad. And it certainly wasn't the first time either. Usually he wakes me up by walking all over me. That show sounds funny. The other day we watched the controversial episode of Pokemon where that one Team Rocket guy gets breast implants. It was awesome. XD

It's been a long time since I crocheted or knitted. But I'm picking up crocheting so I can make doll clothes. XD! And it's a lot easier than knitting. My grandma taught me how to do both a long time ago. She used to make me blankets and sweaters all the time. And scarves...we have so many scarves. But I was trying to teach Jerry how to crochet and I swear I have no idea what he was doing wrong! It was amazing, 'cause when I watched him do it, as far as I could tell it was right, but then when we looked at what he'd done it was like... I don't even know. Just wrong. But it doesn't really help that he's left handed and I'm right handed.

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